MIDNIGHT!/ Wednesday, July 18, 2007
today, i went to school earlier but was late for about 15 minutes.
went to class and heard Eric (our lecturer) said "no lesson today, hand in your assignment and you can leave". so we were like "yeah, can leave early. though it was kind of stupid to just come to school for an hour or so then go home. not much of a difference since every Wednesday we go to school just for 3 hours. (okay, i'm getting too draggy).
so, i called my sis and agreed to meet her at marina square and i was late because of erm "someone". and of course, gotten a lecture from her. after meeting her, we went to eat at a restaurant called imperial something, very similar to crystal jade.
later, we went to shop around and nothing caught our attention. my initial plan was to go there and look for shoes but to no avail. so we continued walking around and i was starting to feel the tiredness.
afterwards, she suggested watching Harry Potter and so we did (sorry sj never watch with you). this is the part where everything started.
there was this good looking guy sitting beside 3 angmos whom i think is a family. when me and my sis walked into the cinema, he turned and was looking at our direction. when i saw him, he was looking at me! (or maybe i think too much, since i am not good looking or cute in any way) then, when i was sitting down, he turned around and said "hello". and i was like OMG! he said hello! guess what? i turned away. i didnt know how to react! i was like grinning away facing my sis!
but then, after facing him with my back for some time, i turned to the front taking a peek at him and he was no longer looking at me. and he didnt look at me anymore. i guess i was being rude to ignore his greeting. but, maybe i'm wrong again. he did not say "hello", i just heard wrongly. why would a hunk say hello to me or even look at me in the first place! or maybe because the cinema was rather dark though the part where im sitting has light shining down. or maybe because he didnt see properly, he maybe short-sighted! maybe maybe maybe.
so nothing happens throughout the show until the moment when we walk out of the theater. i was walking in front of the good looking guy and his i-think-friends and being the very first person in front, when i was grabbing for the handle of the door to open it, i SLIPPED! YES, I SLIPPED! OMG la, i'm so embarrassed la, to think i have to slipped in front of the people and that hunk! T_T stupid pool of water appeared out of nowhere and my good for nothing sandals have to be slippery at that moment! haiz.. and so, i hit my knee and hurt the bone between the halves of my butt. my butt was wet but luckily i have my sling bag to cover.
but that was really bad, can? -.- then i heard the angmo mother said the floor is slippery or something like that. so i got up and walk like nothing happened and the angmos and the hunk just walk away to another direction from me and my sis. i was carrying my laptop at that moment and i think i didnt hit it and hopefully i did not! if not i really cry T_T
so, me and my sis went to wait for cab to go home since i'm lazy to take train. but we waited very long for a cab. the cab was either on-call or was hired. we waited like more than 45 minutes la.
what a bad day for me. =(
seriously, i'm becoming less confident each day. since my face outbreak is getting terrible each day. my hair getting more difficult to manage and more untidy. and my looks suck. everything has make me more demoralize each time. just that i dont show. but it is really getting to me. i cannot help but to think this way. i know there is no ugly woman, only lazy woman. however, when i saw my face and hair and everything, it just turns me off and makes me so depress.
oh well, that's me. the ugly, unappealing me.
Damnit, it ain't meant to be.
23:02 <3
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