MIDNIGHT!/ Friday, June 23, 2006
it's been such long time since i met up with marcus.
he called me this evening and said my friend is with him.. naturally i will think it's a guy 'cos he has a gf..
he told me this person's name only has 2 characters but it didn't occur to me that the person is limlee until he passed over the phone to her..
i was very surprised the both of them went out together.. it just didn't seem right..
when marcus asked me to come down lot 1 i hesitated.. i told him i'm lazy and was scolded for it.. he said he never see someone as lazy as me.. =x
then he said last time i asked him go jp he went but i rejected going down lot 1..
however, when limlee asked me to come down, i agreed..
why i agree?
'cos if there's a chance to improve our friendship, i won't want to miss..
after the "ite grades" incident, i have drifted apart from them (limlee & huifen)..
since then i have felt guilty over it.. i really didn't mean it.. i know it's my fault that i never do my part..
before the incident, we have already quite drifted from each other..
looking back.. during our year 1 in ite, we together with huifen have been quite close.. though im closer to hf as she's also a geminian and we have more common topic..
however, limlee is also a nice person to share your thoughts with..i have been rather close with her back then.. i didn't want to lose the friendship or be'cos of that incident worsen the friendship..
so, when i met her just now.. i didn't really know how to react.. didn't know what to say.. but luckily marcus was there..
initially, we wanted to watch silent hill but that stupid marcus felt otherwise..
so, they accompanied me to eat.. marcus's gf joined us a short while after i finished my food.
feeling awkward, limlee and i decided to make a move & we got a "action without words" scolding..
marcus told us that his gf will get jealous and we were afraid that she might get jealous over us or what we did.. so we made our move..
so, we went to bought the tickets for silent hill and went window shopping awhile as the show is starting only in an hour more..
slowly, we walked to the level one.. when we were near the entrance, we heard sounds made from fireworks so we decided to check it out..
and it's fireworks indeed.. outside
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it's quite pretty but rather loud..
after that, we continued our shopping..
in between, i wanted to tell her that i'm really sorry about the incident but i don't dare to..
why? 'cos i'm scare she may have stop thinking about it and this may caused her to recall and will make her feel upset..
i said we have been not as close as before and she replied ya, we were busy with our school works & stuffs..
then i told her we have not been out together once, just the both of us. but she answered something like there was.. was there any? i cannot remember leh, i can only remember slightly the east coast bbq.. we met and went there together if not wrong..
oh well.. if she still bears strong grudge about the incident, she would not have initiated to watch the show with just the two of us..
since the incident happened last year around mid may, she might have feel better?
but now, i realised, friends are really important.. i don't want to lose friends whom i am close to in the past..
i know it's hard.. but i would try my best if those are worth it.. since not everyone thinks the same as me..
after the show, we went to the bus stop to try our luck to see if there's still buses for us to take home..
i went first as my bus came first.. i sms-ed her and asked if she had boarded..
she replied ya, heng both of us still got bus to go home.. i was wondering, if she doesn't feel like talking to me, she would just reply "ya" and that's it..
this means that she doesn't detest me.. hee..
actually i wanted to send a sms to let her know how i feel about the incident and that i have been very guilty about it.. but when i pressed "send" the sms sent fail! my sms storage is full, as a result, the sms that is unsent, was not saved.. furthermore, there's about 4 sms-es in total in that sms i wanted to send to limlee.. haiz.. think not fated to let her know..
perhaps this is also good.. as it might make her recall the unhappy incident..
but overall, i'm really glad that i can meet her again and chatted with her one to one..
hope there's still more chances in the future.. i hope i can also become close with her and hf again..
Damnit, it ain't meant to be.
00:42 <3
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